I could write forever about how i feel..after Wednesday i feel like shit…i didn’t mean to say what i said…i just said what i thought…I love you…I always say i don’t wannah get married and not have kids…but i say it so i can try and believe it…i actually want to get married…but to you…i want to have kids..but with you…i say i don’t because if that’s what you want then i want that too. I sound clingy as fuck…but when my mind is rattled and your all i think about…i just vent…No one understands how much i care about you…no one understands how much i love you…Not even you…i try my best everyday to make you happy…i always tell myself Challenge excepted! But at the end of the day my mind says Challenge failed…You make me happier than anyone has ever made me…My brother died mother’s day morning 2004 and i thought no one could make me happy like he could…i thought no one could love me like he did…But you changed my mind on that…My heart, itself, says your name with every beat…you saved me from feeling like i would never be good enough….I want us to last for years….I Love You..and i wish i could say this to your face…